Changes

I am totally happy with my life. I have a fantastic husband, two beautiful, smart, amazing daughters, a sweet pup (even though she's smelly sometimes), and we're all healthy and blah, blah, etc etc.

Now. That being said, I REALLY want to change some thing about my life. First of all, as the wife and mother of this family, it's my job to make sure that everyone is not only happy, but healthy too. I want this so bad. I CRAVE it. Almost as much as I crave cheese, bread, pasta and soda. And chocolate. These things, however, are NOT healthy. Well, I guess in small amounts they are fine, but we don't do small amounts in our house. No siree! We'll stuff you full of carbs and sugar over here! But that totally needs to change. Recently I've found some recipes that are...gulp...vegetarian...that actually sound pretty good. We can't live on salad (boo) but we love to try new things. So maybe I can put a couple of these new recipes in our rotation and get away with it. Hmm. I'll have to keep in on the dl though.

That's 'down low' for those of you who aren't hip to the lingo.

Wow that made me sound old huh? Oh my...I'm saying this in my head and I sound like my dad. Dear lord help us.

ANYWAY.

Also, I need to exercise more. My body is resisting it so much that I almost can't even think about it. But I will trudge on, friends!! Bryan and I walked a few miles today and except for the fact that my feet were killing me at the end (improper footwear), I was happy with the way that I felt. I've started workouts before (Hip Hop Abs, Insanity, etc) and honestly, I get really discouraged really quickly. For one, I don't want to do it while anyone else is in the house. I'm super self-concious that way. Secondly, I find that if I keep up with the instructors, I'm so sore for days after that I fall off the wagon real quick. And if I can't keep up with the instructors I get discouraged because it's too hard.

I'm thankful for the health that I have, the family that I have, the life that I have. But if I don't feed myself and my family the right things, our health will fail. If I don't keep us healthy and active, we will be blobs on the couch. Then my kids will have self esteem issues and it will be my fault. So I will nip this in the bud TODAY.

I am making Bryan make these changes with me. That way he can keep me accountable and then I'll be supersexyhotmama. Awesome. I've always wanted to be supersexyhotmama.

Another thing I want to change is my career path. I want to do something that I enjoy. Is that too much to ask? I want to cook. I want to make people happy with food. Healthy food mostly, but also the occasional (or more than occasional) indulgence. For those of you who follow me on Facebook, you know that making food is where it's at for me. Besides my family, that's what makes me happy. Maybe I'll take some culinary classes? I'd like to at some point. I love to learn, you know. I guess learning makes me happy too...but there's not much money in being a professional student.

Third Grade

Tomorrow, my little girl - the one that I swear was 7lbs 14 oz like YESTERDAY - is starting the third grade. She's embarking on this journey that I'm not ready for. She's picking out her own clothes, she cares about cosmetics, and she's Nair'ing her legs. Oh, and she's wearing bras. (Not out of super huge necessity, though. I'm pretty sure an undershirt is sufficient.) She's growing up. The last 8 1/2 years just went lightening fast! How is a mom supposed to deal with this? I keep thinking, "I'm not old enough to have a third grader!" But then she skips down the stairs telling me about this movie, or that pop song, or whatever she's into at the moment. I almost had a heart attack when she lost her first tooth. I panicked when she started Kindergarten. Now my baby, my PRIDE and JOY, is all grown up. I have so much more to say about this but it's killing me to think about. I need a good stiff Coke.