How does a person know that the companion that they have chosen to marry is the right one? This is one of the questions that a person asks herself (himself) before they get married. How do you know? What if this person ISN'T the one? I never really asked this question when Bryan asked me to marry him. I knew I wanted to marry him after our second date. I even called my friend's mom and told her that I had just been out with the man I was going to be with for the rest of my life. Last night, the unwavering faith that I am with my "one" was reaffirmed.
Last night I had a dream that Bryan left me for another woman. (OK, this isn't the point of reaffirmation, keep reading. I'm getting there.) I was so devastated. In my dream, I literally felt nauseous. I felt like I didn't want to live if I couldn't be with him. I know that I COULD live...exist...without him. But the quality of that life would be severely lacking. When I woke up, I made him promise that he would never leave me. Although I know that this is a hard promise to keep because things happen...unavoidable things...I know that he will keep it. Just like I will keep the same promise to him.
I know our marriage has it's faults. I know there are no perfect marriages. Each of us has certain flaws that that the other is annoyed with. But through all of our issues, we are always on each others' side. Always in each others' corner. Sometimes we aren't 100% super happy with each other, but we have never loved each other any less. It wasn't just the dream that made me feel this way. It was the resounding feeling that I had all day after I woke up. Without Bryan, I am only half of a person. He truly is my other half. As long as we have each other, we can get through anything. Anything.
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